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Fic: Change, But Not For The Better

Title:Change, But Not For The Better
Author:debbiet
Fandom/original:The Sentinel
Characters:Blair Sandburg, Jim Ellison
Genre:Gen
Rating:PG
Word count:374
Spoilers:Death fic! Death of a major character! BE WARNED!!!
Summary:This is a death fic, death of a major character!! When one partner dies, the other must cope and continue on.
Author's notes:This is written for 15_minute_fic, word disbelief



Change, But Not For The Better

He stood just inside the door, looking around, the memories coming to the forefront. He couldn’t do this. He knew he couldn’t stay here. This wasn’t his place. It had been Jim’s place. He was just a guest, then later a roommate. So many times, Jim wanted to place Blair on the deed, to give him tangible evidence to stay, especially after Jim kicked him out during Alex’s appearance in Cascade. But Blair never wanted to take that step. He didn’t want to be tied to one place. He was a free spirit and didn’t want to give up his freedom. Even though he knew he would never leave Jim. They were partners and best friends.

Now, everything had changed. In the blink of an eye, Jim was dead and Blair was left all alone. He had no claim to the loft, or any of Jim’s belongings. He would have to pack up his things and leave. However, the thought of that left him perplexed. He had nowhere to go. The free spirit had set roots in Cascade years ago.

Blair closed the door behind him and walked over to the refrigerator, opening it and taking out a beer. He stopped himself before removing two. It was such an ingrained act that he had to consciously think about not doing it. He took the beer and walked to the living room, glancing up at the bedroom that had been Jim’s. Definitely too many memories here for Blair to remain. However, it would be a perfect sanctuary, at least for a while. While he broke down and grieved for his friend.

Blair walked over to the balcony doors, opened them, walking out onto the balcony to look out over the city. Everything was normal: traffic, sirens, birds, even the sun shining. Blair thought there should be at least a moment of silence for the loss of such a great man as Jim Ellison. But the earth still turned, even though everything in the loft might be at a standstill, at least for the time being. Blair stood on the balcony, closed his eyes, and said a silent prayer for his best friend. Life would go on, but it would never be the same as before.

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katiefoolery
Apr. 26th, 2010 10:48 pm (UTC)
You've really captured that sense of disbelief here. It's a very transitional moment - trying to break old habits, yet not quite wanting to yet. Very nicely done.
stoneygirl77
Sep. 10th, 2010 02:52 pm (UTC)
Oh my God, my heart just aches and I want to sob right along with Blair. Beautifully written and it evokes very deep emotion. Great job.
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These are my stories chronicling the continuing adventures of Jim Ellison and Blair Sandburg, Sentinel and Guide, partners and friends.

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